You are my insanity and that's why i leave you. Yet, you are my happiness and that's why i need you to finely alive

There were so much times you left me down. But always, what remains more is every little time when you bring me high.
There were moments that cannot count, when you make up your all night with your friends and left me alone waiting you. There were moments that cannot count when you were driving yourself all year long by drugs and left me cry until dry... And even after i left you... U just made a moment driving drunk to strand yourself lying in hospital and make my entire life get loss. But still, whenever moment comes to only you and me, it's immortal.
Somehow, insanity is immortal. As if, how i falling even more in love with you...when i make you hate me. Like when i cry myself hurted by you...and it also make you hate me. Like when i left you...by knowing i just simply left all my soul in you.

I want nothing more by turning my cry into prayer, but for you to get well soon.