What happened with my Life when "Someday" song by MLTR hits

In my search for freedom
And peace of mind
I’ve left the memories behind
Wanna start a new life
But it seems to be rather absurd
When I know the truth
Is that I always think of you
it's bitter-sweet.
it was my early teen era.
it was when i look into mirror to search prettiness.
it was the first time i've got the fans, flattering words, boasting, surprise presents, and i feel scared, awkward, but happy at the same time.
it was the first time i have my idol, dreaming night and day, smile like crazy, compete with so many girls in school
it was when i heard "crash-boom-bang" everyday in my house.
it was when i start running from the truth.



Someday someway
Together we will be baby
I will take and you will take your time
We’ll wait for our fate
Cos’ nobody owns us baby
We can shake we can shake the rock
it was the first time i hold my life on my best friend.
it was when i know Candu as my best friend.
it was when i called Candu, distract Candu all the time after school, just begging for happiness.
it was when i swallow all things I got from Candu as a "Happiness".
it was when I'm so happy in school and so brokenhearted at home
it was the era when i left my sister most of times
it was the starting point i fell in love
it was the starting point i lost my faith
it was the starting point Candu gave me a RollerCoaster riding
it was the starting point i'm addicted with the roller coaster

Try to throw the picture
Out of my mind
Try to leave the memories behind
Here by the ocean
Wave’s carry voices from you
Do you know the truth
I am thinking of you too
it was the point i start to banned my parents from my "trusted-friend" list
it was the era i start to leave God
it was my first experienced chopping my face with blade
it was my first experienced having sensation of being kissed
it was when i feel excited becoming sick by something else than "broken-home" thing.
it was when i struggle accepting "affair", that i could not even understand what it is
it was the first time i try to calm my self seeing mother went crackers.
it was the beginning of my sleep haunted by nightmare.
it was my first experienced learning how to make fake smile
it was my first experienced knowing what is "divorce"

Someday someway
Together we will be baby...
The love we had together
Just fades away in time
And now you’ve got your own world
And I guess I’ve got mine
But the passion that you planted
In the middle of my heart
Is a passion that will never stop
Thank you Michael Learns to Rock,
I'm gonna learn to shed tears
i'm gonna learn to cure trauma
i'm gonna learn to wash my brain
and get a life :)